Feeling Real- 15 days to go!

Today I met with my surgeon. We did some more measurements and I bit into this wax. The wax was a mouthful, I almost gagged.

Fun times ^

It's starting to feel real, like it's really happening. At the appointment today I saw exactly what cuts they will be making and where they'll put the screws and plates in. We talked through some of the steps immediately after surgery... Sounds like worst case scenario is being wired completely shut for a week, then switching to rubber bands for the rest of the time (don't know how long, about a month probably). We are considering taking my fake tooth out before the surgery, and leaving it out for a while so that I have some extra space to breathe through and an easier way to suck through a straw or something. This might help some of the anxiety I have about not being able to breathe, and that claustrophic feeling I'm afraid of. I'm just not sure that I want to go without my tooth for a week or so, I'll already be super swollen, I don't know if I wanna look like a hillbilly too. But then again it doesn't really matter because I won't be seeing people for a while anyway.

I have my pre op appointment tomorrow. I hope I don't have to do any blood work because I have Nationals for dance, and I don't want to have a bruise for competition.

I'm getting real nervous. For the past few hours I've been reading blogs of people with similar situations; both upper and lower jaw surgery correcting an underbite. People talk a lot about the swelling... I'm not excited about that. I remember being swollen for just getting my wisdom teeth out and that was no fun at all, so I'm really not looking forward to that part of this whole journey. I'm also anxious because people are still talking about some not so fun symptoms 8 weeks post op! I'm nervous about going off to college August 18, with my surgery date being July 3. This is really what's bothering me. If I had more time to recover I think I'd feel better.

But I know that the worst will hopefully be over by the time I go to school.

I just gotta keep prayin, and keep the end result in mind. I truly am excited, there's just some anxieties I'm going to have to work through. 15 days!!!